We have splat up so many times. But each time we got back together on the same day. Or the latest on the next day.

Here we are. We broke up. This time seriously. I quit working at your company. We didn't even comunicate for a month. And i was so happy. I really was. I thought i didn't love you anymore. I didn't care for a change. You offered to meet up and be friends. 

Boy, i wish i didn't see you. 

Now when i see you and realize that we are no longer together… I am slowly dieing. I understand that there is nothing we can change. I am not even gonna try to. I am not even gonna think about it. That is it. That's the end. We are done. And i must to accept it. 

You have already made plans for your future. Your futere where there is no place for me. I am ok with that. I knew long time ago it would happen. It was only a question of time. I am, though, very glad that you finally feel happy. Doesn't matter with or without me. Matters only the fact that you are happy. 

I don't know what will be after you leave the country. I just don't know.

Boy, i had the best man ever. And i let you down. I let you go. I didn't fight for you.

Please, sweetheart, forgive me. Forgive me that i gave up our life and didn't fight for our love. 

I don't know if i will be able to forget you. I don't know if i will be able to stop feeling love towards you. If i am not able to there will be no life for me without you. I am too adicted to you. 

I don't know how to live without you. 

Please, God help me.